Apologies for lack of posts for the past few weeks – a few things have been going on:
New PlayStation 4 has taken up A LOT of my time after work
Celebrated my 30th so drank…a lot!
Re-organising stuff for when I start University again in October (because I will be working full time and studying full time, there is a lot of organisation to do to prep me for this – I don’t cope well when there is too much going on all at once so I enjoy mentally prepping myself and getting everything ready way beforehand)
I have been looking at house-shares via video conferencing to move into and finally found a place which I will be moving into on Friday 12th June
Packing for the new place and adventure in my life
Working full time
I have also suffered severe tooth pain for a few weeks to the point where focusing on work was all I could cope with…other than that and some of the above, I spent my spare time continuously phoning the dentist to get an appointment (which I thankfully do also on Friday) and sleeping (one of my favourite pass times…)
Once I am sorted, settled and adjusted to my new place, I will continue running the blog on a weekly (or even more) basis.
In the mean time, I hope all my readers are staying well, healthy and most importantly, starting to adjust to the ‘new times’ as I like to call it.
It’s 3am in the morning, I am in my conservatory playing Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time on my Playstation silently hoping my parents don’t wake up and catch me otherwise I will be grounded from playing it for a month AGAIN. At this point, I am only 14 years old and I think it is fair to say I am fairly addicted to gaming. If it isn’t Prince of Persia I am playing, it will be Gran Turismo, Tekken and others.
Fast forward 16 years give or take and I am nearly 30 awaiting the arrival of my Playstation 4 and Horizon: New Dawn game. My birthday is in 4 days time so I won’t get it until then. It has been at least 14 years since I was (self diagnosed by myself and diagnosed by other family members) addicted to gaming but I am determined to not let that addiction take over this time. The thing is, during lockdown, I have found a few things that I have missed doing (prior to lockdown, I started reading, but due to being so anxious near enough everyday, I have not been relaxed enough to read but I do plan to pick this hobby up again) and one of the things I miss is gaming.
When I used to go to my friends house (he chipped in for the PS4 along with my grandparents and parents), I would play his Horizon: New Dawn game or Star Wars and it was so nice as he would relax on his phone, start decorating his house or whatever; as I hadn’t played games in so long, he would also help me with what I had to do (tips etc). When I left his, I just wanted to continue playing and I have been so keen to get a console – it was a toss up between Xbox or PS4 but ultimately, since I have always had Playstation (I had a PS1, PS2 and PS3) I decided to stick with Playstation. My friend *Hazel also getting a console made me want one too.
Anyway, psychologically, this will be so good for me AS LONG AS I DO NOT GET ADDICTED – I am someone who loves to solve problems and issues; I can be like a ‘dog with a bone’ – I will not let something rest until it is resolved. During my CBT sessions, my therapist has confirmed this is a personality trait amongst those who are problem solvers, natural analysts and people who are also perfectionists (which I am).
Once I set up my new console, I will enjoy that during these tough times due to Covid-19, the lockdown and the uncertainty, I can take my mind away from the real world for a short time during my days. Unlike reading, gaming allows me to solve problems therefore improving my cognitive thinking skills as well as other cognitive skills. It has been proven that those who play games, solve puzzles and complete other problem solving tasks on a regular basis even in adulthood improve their reaction time, spatial memory, mental flexibility as well as decreasing stress levels and improve self-esteem amongst other benefits.(https://effectiviology.com/cognitive-benefits-of-playing-video-games/).
Another thing I enjoy doing as I mentioned above is reading and this is extremely beneficial for me in terms of allowing me to relaxing, easing any stress I may have, allowing me to concentrate for a number of hours without realising how much time has passed by (therefore increasing my concentration skills – I find it hard to concentrate on things for longer than 30 minutes) and allowing a decent nights sleep. So going hand in hand with gaming, as long as I don’t get addicted like I used to, the personal benefits to me (and other people if you’re inspired by this post to game and read as well as take up other hobbies from home) seem well worth the time I will put into these activities.
I have seemed to have coped really well during the lockdown – I have to go grocery shopping once a week for myself and I have gone for my grandparents when other family members have not been able to as my grandparents are vulnerable of course and my cousin as she is living with them (she is not allowed out either). Their shopping is left on the porch and I will say hello through their window at the moment. I haven’t seen my friends in a long time bar this weekend where I saw my friend *Amy but I was of course 2m apart from her, her daughter and partner to celebrate my 30th and her partners birthday.
However, since my level 1 course for BSc (Honours) Psychology finished at end of April, I have almost felt at a loss. My life during lockdown involved the above (grocery shopping etc), working from home and studying after work and on the weekends; for my job, I resolve and fix issues = perfect for me; studying = I am learning how to solve psychological issues and put points and arguments forward to make a valid case = again, perfect for me. Since my course ended, I needed to find something else to problem solve so getting the PS4 will help me deal with this personality trait that I seem to have.
I know there are a lot of negatives that come with gaming, however, as mentioned above, if an individual is responsible with their time gaming or parents monitor and restrict their children, then gaming is a perfect way to entertain whilst improving brain function in multiple ways.
Please let me know any thoughts you may have.
Just as a side note as I am getting a lot of readers (thank you so much by the way) from around the world, I do have access to some personal information. To keep myself safe online, I have a statcounter installed on this blog for a number of reasons, but one of the reasons being to monitor who comments are left by and who is obsessively viewing. I have had to report two individuals to police (in the past) due to issues and it is fairly evident one of these individuals views this blog near enough on a daily basis. So please be aware that I have access to an IP address provided by your phone provider (example, if you’re not using WIFI, the IP address will appear near your location), I also have access to the device used to access my blog (the phone or laptop will be stated), the internet platform used will be shown as well as the operating system of the device. I will also have access to how many times an individual has visited in one session, how long they visited for and every link they clicked on to get to this blog and links they clicked on within the blog. The access point (link or direct request by typing in the URL) is also viewable by me as well as time and dates of course. For instance, one view has constantly been from a user who uses Vodafone and an iPhone to access this blog via a direct request. This same user has accessed me through their home network in Uckfield. This blog is fully intended for my psychological discussions, my psychology studies and anything psychology based – there is nothing here for people who have been warned by police to stop viewing to see. Thank you.
During my BSc (Honours) Psychology degree, for level 2, I have chosen a module called ‘Living Psychology: from the everyday to the extraordinary’. Part of this module covers why people believe in astrology and the like – I am ONE of these people despite studying a scientific degree.
Let me start from when I was around 8 years old or possibly even younger; I can recall my mother saying to me that I am a ‘Taurus’ or ‘Gemini’ but she was unsure which as I was born on 21st May (astrologically, Taurus goes into Gemini on this date in the morning of the year I was born, I was born in the morning). From this day on, I became very interested in Star-signs. Throughout my teens, I became even more obsessed with Astrology, Chinese Astrology, crystals/stones and tarot cards. I was always purchasing weekly magazines – gossip magazines as girls do, spirituality magazines and of course, Kerrang! as I was also obsessed with music, in particular, alternative music.
When I was 17, I begged my best friend’s mum (when I was in high-school) to read my tarots for me – she eventually agreed. This lady knew me a little bit but she didn’t know certain things about me, my family and my family from generations passed – aka, history regarding my nan, great-grandmother and great-grandfather; my best friend didn’t know much about my family history either, if anything at all, as I kept a lot of this to myself. My friends mother mentioned some things that blew my mind and made me more of a believer as they were not comments that could just be applied to anyone in any particular context – her comments were extremely specific, it would be impossible to relate them to another person or even time/place.
Fast forward 10+ something years, at 30 years old, I am still this way. After attending a psychic fair with another best friend of mine a few months ago, I discovered my birth chart, purchased some crystals (as I had never had crystals/stones of my own but in our house as decor when growing up) and had another reading done.
The inner conflict with me however, comes when I start thinking about psychology and science in general. Scientifically, the human brain and body is a machine built by science – from the heart pumping to the neurotransmitters in the brain to the spinal-chord to the nervous system that runs throughout our body. Everything we feel physically is created by science. Everything we see is seen thanks to science. Everything we hear is heard because of science. Emotionally, everything we experience is also due to science and the chemicals released because of the situation and the way we interpret that situation – for example, if someone says to us ‘wow, you look so pretty’ – that will release oxytocin into our brain and make us feel wanted & loved because we interpret that comment as a friendly, warm & loving statement. However, in contrast, if someone accuses us of doing something we didn’t do (for example), this can, if the comment is deemed hurtful and untrue, causes the body to release adrenaline – we all know the affect adrenaline has on our body – accelerated heart rate, alertness, shallow breathing (in fear) but in anger, adrenaline can also make an individual defensive, cold, abrupt, emotionally upset and even unstable.
Due to my personal beliefs and the facts of biological science, I have accepted that in some instances, especially during my module ‘Living Psychology’, I will sometimes read or learn that what I personally believe to be true will often be debunked by scientific fact – which is fine. This in no way means I will at all turn my back on what I have believed since I was a child (I am also religious), throughout my teens and twenties but it also does not mean I will in any way or form turn my back on what is scientific fact – for me, I believe both my beliefs and science work hand in hand.
I use an app on my phone called Nebula which not only has my entire birth chart, but also how the planets are placed everyday and how this will affect my day, week, month and years to come (where the planets are and how they move is based on scientific observation, so this is a perfect example alone of how science and my beliefs go hand in hand – the Greeks very much believed each planet held a specific power – for example, Venus is known as the planet of Love and is feminine and Mars is a masculine planet, known to have the power of War – passion & anger). I also have a beautiful amethyst crystal (among believers, amethyst is known to promote balance, inner peace, stress relief amongst many other properties) which I take with me to most places when I am staying away from home; I also have a quartz crystal necklace arriving this week (this crystal promotes love, patience & harmony – which during this time of the pandemic, I feel I need right now).
As well as learning about astrology and crystals/stones, I have also learned through my own psychological knowledge, to ‘re-wire’ my brain which is possible if one is determined and strong enough to work through their thought processes, deepest feelings and emotions – this is basically biological science; if you know yourself well enough and have close friends/family to help you, you can certainly look into yourself more and amend any negative traits in regards to your personality or way of thinking that could affect relationships of all kinds, jobs, looking after your home, looking after yourself etc – Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) is something I have read a lot about in my personal readings of psychology and is a therapy based on tools to help a patient change and control their thinking processes; I have used a lot of tools that come with CBT on my own to help me go from negative thoughts and feelings to more positive ways of thinking and behaviour.
The purpose of this post really is to state that believing in astrology, crystals, stones, tarots and other psychic things as well as confirming scientific fact is actually a possibility. I started to get interested in psychology when I watched my first murder documentary series Snapped in 2006, I was 16. After this, I became very interested in many aspects of psychology – mental health, why people hurt others physically and emotionally and even kill, why people behave the way they do etc. In April 2018, when my neighbour mentioned she was finishing her degree in Psychology, I asked her about it and she confirmed I didn’t need any other qualifications or experience and I could also choose to do the course full-time or part-time. I enrolled as soon as I could and 2 years later, 1 level (almost) completed, I have realised that so many paths have opened up for me and I will decide on future modules, career paths etc when my degree is completed. During my studies, I have also found comfort in that, as I said above, one can believe in the ‘psychic’ world as well as seeing science as fact.
After all, who is to say a God, or Gods don’t exist? Who is to say science isn’t in fact a God within itself that builds and creates life? Who is to say earth doesn’t carry Karma? There is so much science can approve and disapprove, but when it comes to things that people believe and have personally experienced spiritually and of course scientifically, that cannot be explained, this for me, is proof alone that there is something out there bigger than all of us.
What are your personal beliefs/thoughts on this blog post? Do you believe in one or the other, neither or both? Kind comments only please – all opinions, view points are accepted.